Hello, and welcome to Finding Calm Within the Chaos. My name is Sarmi, and I am someone who has walked through deep trauma, intense mental health battles, and seasons of life that I wasn’t sure I would survive. I live with several diagnoses that shape my daily reality:
- Dissociative Identity Disorder
- Bipolar II Disorder
- Borderline Personality Disorder
- Generalized Anxiety
- Insomnia
- Suicidal Ideation
- Post‑Traumatic Stress Disorder
These are not just words on paper—they are lived experiences, challenges I wake up with, and battles I’ve had to learn to fight with faith, therapy, community, and sheer courage. My story includes multiple overdose attempts, including one in 2022 that resulted in 12 days in a psychiatric hospital. Those moments were not signs of weakness, but signs of pain I didn’t yet know how to carry.
And yet… I am still here. I believe with all my heart that God kept me here for a reason.
My healing journey has not been smooth or pretty. It has been raw, non‑linear, and filled with both setbacks and breakthroughs. I’ve learned that recovery is not about pretending everything is okay—it’s about discovering strength, compassion, and hope even while things are hard. I have seen God meet me in the darkness, in the hospital bed, in the quiet moments when I wasn’t sure I wanted to keep breathing. He has been my anchor when my mind was loud and my heart was tired.
This blog is where I share what it looks like to heal while living with trauma and complex mental health diagnoses. I write about faith, survival, mental health strategies, dissociation, emotional regulation, spiritual grounding, and the quiet miracles that keep me going. I don’t claim perfection—I claim growth. I claim resilience. I claim the grace that God keeps giving me every single time I get back up.
If you’re here because life is loud, messy, painful, overwhelming, or confusing, please know this:
- You are not alone.
- Your struggles do not make you weak.
- Surviving is something to be proud of.
I’m still learning, still healing, and still choosing hope one day at a time—and I’m honored to have you walking this path with me. Together, we can learn to find moments of calm, even in the middle of the chaos, and discover a deeper connection with God, with ourselves, and with a future worth staying for.
Thank You
Thank you for joining me on this journey. By being here, you are choosing to walk alongside someone who has known deep struggle, who is learning to find calm in the chaos, and who is striving to live with faith, hope, and resilience. Your presence matters. Your attention matters. And your willingness to share in this space—even silently—is a gift I do not take lightly.
Together, we can hold space for healing, for understanding, and for the quiet miracles that remind us that we are never truly alone. Thank you for trusting me with my story, and for allowing me to share this path with you.